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Dear Kari,
This morning as I'm on my workout route, I noticed that I constantly simulate others watching me, so that I can overcompensate in disguising myself. This may be normal, but it shouldn't be.
There's an extra .exe always running that is draining my system resources.
This was the value of Eckhart Tolle videos. Being present in my body bypasses the .exe. When I did this successfully, I ran three more miles than usual. I'm way stronger than I am while masking.
My masking is a direct response to my childhood experiences. My parents were either not watching me when they should have been, or watching me when they shouldn't have been.
I was watching TV in a long shirt with my knees tucked into the shirt, that was wrong, dad pulled my shirt off of me and I was just in my underwear.
I was speaking softly because my parents were such fragile jerks, and that was wrong, I needed to speak louder.
I spoke louder, but that was wrong, too much confidence, my mom was foaming at the mouth, I committed a crime.
My dad tried to argue with me about Christianity, I asked a logical question to demonstrate his irrational thinking, that was wrong. You're not allowed to ask questions that you already know the answer to, this is a crime, conceal your intelligence.
I was way older and I went to the dance floor, I'm good at dancing, I do whatever I want to, people love it, this is permitted.
Celebrities are permitted to exist without their existences being a crime. This is why everyone loves celebrities, this is why you and I are so good at singing like them. Free masks for everyone.
I need to disable this .exe. I want to be stronger. I want to stop being tired from being in public, something I never understood, but now I do.
I hope you're having a great time! :)
—Michael