You Saved Me
Kari,
I realized tonight that I was never ever ever ever going to be in a relationship for the rest of my life until I healed my avoidance.
I was going to hide from everything and tell myself it's because I needed to get my stuff together. I caught myself making excuses. I always believed they were true, and so real.
You saved me from me causing myself to be alone forever. 🤯 In theory, but in reality.
I was never coming back.
I was wasting years being avoidant and needing to get better, but no one cared... it's your story-ish, no one cared enough to say "Hey, you could easily get a girlfriend, so why are you still single?"
I feel horrified thinking that. That everyone let me languish. Everyone essentially let me die. I've never thought about that or felt the weird feelings associated with that.
You saved me. You actually saved me.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
That's so scary. Everyone let me die.
Thank you, Kari.
I still have to get better, but... do you ever think about how far we've come since we met?
So unreal. I need to pay you back so hard. I hope I'm protecting you!